Overwhelmed and humbled

It has been a challenging week for me. Joshua is growing and learning, and wants to do so much more than his 2 year old body can do. He has such will. Which sometimes leads to frustration. And a frustrated toddler can sometimes mean a frustrated mom. I have been so overwhelmed this past week. I know Joshua is going through a growth spurt and changing in so many more ways than I will ever know. Yet even knowing this it becomes a challenge at times to stay in ease.

In this past week I have realized just how much I give to others, not just my son. And how little I give to myself. In the past 2 years I have given up so much, mostly in a good way. I have decided that I can't control everything, and surely not another person, and so all I really can do is be a loving support to other, instead of trying to swoop in (with good intention) and make everything ok, that doesn't serve anyone in the long run.

And so through all of this experience I have started to return to a daily practice that is enriching to me. Most days this is taking a walk. Sometimes it's taking a nap when Joshua is napping and enjoying the quiet. whatever it may be I continue to return to peace and give back to myself.

Today I read this blog post about a mothers experience of the transition of her son: http://elainalove.wordpress.com/2010/01/30/dominics-goodbye/

I had the pleasure of briefly meeting Elaina a few years ago, she is friends with one of my old roommates. We are friends on facebook and so I have been following her story for the past few months. Sending her and Dom light. I am humbled by reading her latest post. She is truly connecting to soul in this process of experiencing her son transition from a being in a body to an unlimited being of light. Bless you both and thank you for sharing your experiences with us.

I am grateful for the opportunity to share these experiences with my son. And for listening to my inner guidance.

We have many excited changes happening in the next few weeks and I believe it will help with Joshua's biggest frustration - communication. And will also give Chris and I some much needed us time.

BALANCE